So, onto an actual topic that isn't excuses...in my previous post, I mentioned that I'm planning on making music. And that's what's been on my mind mostly recently, so I'm probably going to
The basement has been cleared out. We've been living in this house for about 10 and a half years now, and we've accumulated quite a lot of junk in that time (no matter what either of my parents or my siblings will say, we do have a lot of junk) and most of that stuff gets sent to the basement or the attic (the attic is quite terrifying if I think about all the stuff in there. No one likes being sent to get stuff because it's a nightmare trying to navigate through it all)
Over the years, we've sorted stuff out, but every time it would get messed up again. Fast. It helps that for a few years us kids had to watch tv and had our main playroom in the basement. Later they kicked us out because we couldn't keep it clean (we were allowed there again later when the tv was moved back to the basement, and was again kicked out and when we get a new tv and one of the old ones gets shoved in the basement it'll be turned into a workout area for my mom) But in more recent years, no one just bothered to actually organize things, so it all ended up in piles everywhere.
But it seems like withholding internet until we get someplace clean is a great motivator for me and my siblings to actually work together without fighting (that's another reason why we don't clean as often...in most cases someone drops out because someone else isn't happy with someone's attitude and the rest of us follow suit because we feel like we're doing more work because of it) We got that basement cleaned and more or less organized so that later our parents can thoroughly organize stuff and throw away or keep what they want or need.
And to make it even more amazing, we've got two new desks in the basement now (I built them :) ) My dad has made his office there, and the other desk is for when we get around to making music. Which will hopefully be soon. It's a bit hard to ask him to show me how to use the decade-old equipment when he's working most of the time and sleeping or playing games most of the rest of the time. (Well, some of them might not be a decade old and you could probably do the same with more modern software, but I'd rather learn how to use the stuff we have)
We've got two keyboards. One is already in the basement and has been thoroughly cleaned by me (it was disgusting, let me tell you that) and the other is in the attic and will either be set up in the basement (which I'm hoping for) or on the ground floor. Both belong to my mom, so it's really her choice. It's just that the one I actually played with a few years ago and prefer over the one in the basement is the one in the attic, and she might not want it in the basement because of reasons (I think one being that our basement has flooded before, which is another contributor to the whole mess thing, so it is pretty understandable)
I've got my guitar and my violin, and paired with the keyboards (after I've had some practice and frustrating myself with all three) I'll be able to start making the music that's been in my head for I don't know how long...well, some only recently, but some songs I've had stuck there for a while now.
I have to say this: I'm not sure how good of a singer I am. Personally, I don't like my voice. I don't like it when I hear myself sing. But I can hit a lot of notes, so I'm proud of that at least. I don't think that I have a very strong voice (I'm a very quiet person, and it shows in my voice as well) I've never had any singing lessons (unless you count those few that I had at school that I don't practice now)
But I will still sing. I will make my music, no matter if it takes me a day, a week, or ten years. I don't care if anyone tells me that I am bad at singing or that I should go jump off a cliff, I will make my music.
Because in the end, I'm doing it for me. I'm not trying to impress anyone and truthfully I can't imagine myself trying realistically either. I suck at life, and if music is added to that list then oh well. At least I'll have tried. Otherwise it'll just bother me for the rest of my life.
I think I'm done with this particular rambling session. My time on the internet is almost up for today, and I've got another train of thought now that I should turn into a post (and will at least start provided that nothing terribly crazy happens)
