Gonna Make Some Music Someday

...I forgot about this. I really did. Wow. Partly because I've had other stuff on my mind, partly because I've got limited internet access, and partly because I just forgot.

So, onto an actual topic that isn't excuses...in my previous post, I mentioned that I'm planning on making music. And that's what's been on my mind mostly recently, so I'm probably going to talk ramble a bit about that.

The basement has been cleared out. We've been living in this house for about 10 and a half years now, and we've accumulated quite a lot of junk in that time (no matter what either of my parents or my siblings will say, we do have a lot of junk) and most of that stuff gets sent to the basement or the attic (the attic is quite terrifying if I think about all the stuff in there. No one likes being sent to get stuff because it's a nightmare trying to navigate through it all)

Over the years, we've sorted stuff out, but every time it would get messed up again. Fast. It helps that for a few years us kids had to watch tv and had our main playroom in the basement. Later they kicked us out because we couldn't keep it clean (we were allowed there again later when the tv was moved back to the basement, and was again kicked out and when we get a new tv and one of the old ones gets shoved in the basement it'll be turned into a workout area for my mom) But in more recent years, no one just bothered to actually organize things, so it all ended up in piles everywhere.

But it seems like withholding internet until we get someplace clean is a great motivator for me and my siblings to actually work together without fighting (that's another reason why we don't clean as often...in most cases someone drops out because someone else isn't happy with someone's attitude and the rest of us follow suit because we feel like we're doing more work because of it) We got that basement cleaned and more or less organized so that later our parents can thoroughly organize stuff and throw away or keep what they want or need.

And to make it even more amazing, we've got two new desks in the basement now (I built them :) ) My dad has made his office there, and the other desk is for when we get around to making music. Which will hopefully be soon. It's a bit hard to ask him to show me how to use the decade-old equipment when he's working most of the time and sleeping or playing games most of the rest of the time. (Well, some of them might not be a decade old and you could probably do the same with more modern software, but I'd rather learn how to use the stuff we have)

We've got two keyboards. One is already in the basement and has been thoroughly cleaned by me (it was disgusting, let me tell you that) and the other is in the attic and will either be set up in the basement (which I'm hoping for) or on the ground floor. Both belong to my mom, so it's really her choice. It's just that the one I actually played with a few years ago and prefer over the one in the basement is the one in the attic, and she might not want it in the basement because of reasons (I think one being that our basement has flooded before, which is another contributor to the whole mess thing, so it is pretty understandable)

I've got my guitar and my violin, and paired with the keyboards (after I've had some practice and frustrating myself with all three) I'll be able to start making the music that's been in my head for I don't know how long...well, some only recently, but some songs I've had stuck there for a while now.


I have to say this: I'm not sure how good of a singer I am. Personally, I don't like my voice. I don't like it when I hear myself sing. But I can hit a lot of notes, so I'm proud of that at least. I don't think that I have a very strong voice (I'm a very quiet person, and it shows in my voice as well) I've never had any singing lessons (unless you count those few that I had at school that I don't practice now)

But I will still sing. I will make my music, no matter if it takes me a day, a week, or ten years. I don't care if anyone tells me that I am bad at singing or that I should go jump off a cliff, I will make my music.

Because in the end, I'm doing it for me. I'm not trying to impress anyone and truthfully I can't imagine myself trying realistically either. I suck at life, and if music is added to that list then oh well. At least I'll have tried. Otherwise it'll just bother me for the rest of my life.


I think I'm done with this particular rambling session. My time on the internet is almost up for today, and I've got another train of thought now that I should turn into a post (and will at least start provided that nothing terribly crazy happens)

Merry Christmas!

Okay, so technically it's a few hours before midnight here where I am, but I'm not sure I'll get a chance to do much tomorrow, so...

Merry Christmas!

Or if you don't celebrate Christmas for whatever reason, Happy Holidays (or if you don't celebrate any holidays, then...you don't get any special greeting, I guess)

So yeah, I'm not coming on here that much. I have no real excuse for November since my last post, but I am somewhat happy with the fact that I do have legitimate reasons for not coming on much in December.

Since I can honestly not remember if I ever mentioned this before and I'm too lazy to find out, I have 8 people in my family including me. And three of them have their birthdays in December (my younger brother, mom, and dad) So we've been celebrating that a bit.

Also, had to do some spring cleaning (more like winter cleaning, but whatever) and I'm planning on making music with my dad. Also I've been studying to get my GED...and at some point my dad's going to drive me and my siblings to the local college to enroll for classes there for it so we actually can get it, so I'm not sure how much time I'll have once that happens and we start taking classes. I was too late in studying to get it this year, unfortunately.

And also, my little siblings started going to public school earlier in the year (did I mention that?) My mom is a frequent helper there at the school, and she often drags me along to help (which has its advantages)

And I've been making too many cookies (they taste better than the store-bought stuff though) for no particular reason.

And dealing with the self-diagnosed bipolar disorder/depression. I'm still way too scared to talk to my mom about it, and though I had a while of feeling "up", now it seems like I'm back "down". It's very tiring to go through it all...but the more I look back, the more I realize that this is a pattern that repeats itself.

I will try to remember to put something else up before the new year. But I make no promises, because I might forget.

Random notes

Time for some random stuff that I feel like getting out here for some odd reason. Enjoy, don't enjoy. This is just here for randomness...

It's snowing here where I am! Wish I could take a picture, but I don't have my phone...and it's now accumulating.

I'm studying to get my GED...hopefully I can take it before the year ends and the new harder one comes out.

My parents are going to let me dye my hair blue! (My mom was fine with it to begin with, my dad wasn't happy, she talked to him, and now he'll pay for it because whether he paid for it or not I would've gotten it blue...you have no idea how happy I am because of that)

A few days ago I got leftover Halloween candy for $8 USD on sale...if it was original prices, I would've paid over $25 USD.

I still have Halloween candy left! And my brother finished his practically before the night ended!

I've got a doctors appointment near the end of the month where I'm going to be getting a shot (forgot for what exactly, but apparently the shot is bad enough to cause a burning sensation and a lot of pain, but the first shot for it that I got just felt like a regular shot...it was actually a lot less painful than the last time I went in for shots, anyways)

Baking soda for toothpaste works out better for me...and apparently (according to my older brother, who I'm not sure if I can always trust his word for everything) toothpaste has crude oil in it...but according to Google by searching "toothpaste crude oil" and skimming over the results, it does seem to be true...

Baking soda shampoo works wonders far better than chemical shampoos...going to be trying using an egg instead of conditioner next time I wash my hair. Also, olive oil makes my hair soft :)

Jolly Rancher chews are better than the hard candies.

Happy Halloween! Here are some cartoon theories that might ruin your childhood...

Happy Halloween! Enjoy a rather creepy post that has nothing to do with the actual holiday!

I was listening to a Vocaloid song the other day that sparked my interest...and led me down a road full of crazy that would've ruined my childhood if I didn't find it so interesting.

So, if you're a fan of the cartoons (I'm going over Rugrats, Ed, Edd, and Eddy, Pokemon, Phineas and Ferb, and Courage the Cowardly Dog) and you don't want the image of that ruined, do yourself a favor and don't read the rest of this post.

However, if you're like me and want to see what theories other people have made up about them, by all means continue reading. Because while some are insane and can't possibly be real, others have a disturbing sense of realism that could actually fit...

Disclaimer: All these theories are not real. They are made for entertainment purposes only. Or to scare people maybe. Point is, they're not real.

Also, this post contains topics that younger audiences might not want to read and can possibly ruin your childhood memories of the shows I mentioned. Read at your own risk.

It's getting closer to Halloween...

I've got 3 drafts that I'm working on...they'll be up eventually. But for now I do want to post something.

So now it's the time of year for...Halloween. Everyone celebrates it differently. Some people go over the top and decorate their house like others would do for Christmas (there's this house in my neighborhood that does that...well, two really...but it's creepy and cool at the same time) Others more or less shun anyone mentioning the holiday. My family just goes along with it. I see it as an opportunity to get some free candy (and if we actually ever bothered doing anything, it would also be a chance to scare some kids...well, teens actually...scaring little kids is wrong)

I know that some people (if they ever read this) would think badly of me for saying this, but I still go out for the candy. I plan to this year, and I'm 18.