Contradictory

I'm sad, I'm happy.

I don't need anyone, I need someone.

I hate my life, I love my life.

I want to scream, I want to laugh.

I want to cry, I want to sing.

I want to sleep, I want to dance.

I feel useless, I feel useful.

I'm numb, I'm aware.

I'm dead, I'm alive.

I don't want to learn, I want to learn.

I need to live a lie, I can live my life.

I don't care, I will care more than you know.

I'm brave, I'm afraid.

I despair, I fly.

I live in reality, I live in dreams.

Sometimes it's hard. Other times it's easy. For what exactly, I can't say. That's up to every person to decide for themselves. The above is just some of the things that I go through. In reality, I'm all those things, but I feel more of the first parts. It's only really in my dreams that I feel the second parts.

Oh, and if you're wondering, I did deliberately but 'brave' before 'afraid'.