Part of my relationship with my mom, and sisterly randomness

I...don't really feel close to my mom. Or my dad for that matter, but he's not home most of the time so it's sort of understandable. But I feel like I should be close to my mom. I should be able to talk to her about the stuff that really make me uncomfortable even thinking of talking to anyone else about (of which there seems to be quite a bit) But most of the time I can't. I mean, it's not that I feel too uncomfortable asking her, or because I don't get enough courage to ask (somehow I manage this part easily when I actually decide to do it...it's the debating on whether or not I'm actually going to do it that seems to be more effort) but because she always seems to be busy.

But today something happened...I actually got close to my mom. My dad too, but my point here is mostly about my mom. We didn't have a heart-to-heart or anything, but you'd be surprised at how much one small trip away from the rest of my noisy siblings (minus my little sister, since she came along as well) can do.

So yeah, I still need to find some time where she's not busy, and finally get around to talking to her about some other stuff.

Oh, and my older sister seems to have a boyfriend. Maybe, anyways. She was planning on seeing a guy later (no, I don't know his name, nobody except her seems to...since she absolutely has to be so secretive about it) but the plans got cancelled. Because of all the fuss she put up this morning when they were almost cancelled anyways (just one of the usual family drama fight thingys or whatever you want to call it) Everyone thought that she was the one that cancelled it. But it turns out that the guy's dad is dying. And a part of me can't help but wonder if that's just an excuse (I know absolutely nothing about this guy, so there's only really a miniscule part of me that feels sorry for him) Because honestly, my sister...well, I'd say she's a bitch, but I really don't like talking like that. So instead I'll say that she needs a boyfriend with a lot of patience.

So, because of the family drama, (yes, this is probably random and irrelevant to most of the rest of this post) my sister is in charge of making dinner tomorrow...me and her were both in charge of it today (though not for punsihment, despite what my sister thinks) and we were going to go eat out tomorrow, but she wouldn't cancel her plans or give up her cellphone (the plans were cancelled much later) so now we're going to have to sit with her...I'm probably going to stick with a sandwich...she never ties her hair up...

Also random, but the lightbulbs in my room went out! Yesterday I pretty much did stuff in the dark (not as hard as one might think) and would've today as well if my brother hadn't found some temporary replacements until we go to the store and get some proper ones. These are too bright...can't wait to get the other ones.

Still, I'm pretty much content today. I wouldn't say happy, but I'm content. And it feels nice.