Random Minecraft...?

     I probably don't come here often enough. Not only because this is a blog, even though I'm still not entirely sure why I made it in the first place, but also because a lot of the time I come here to rant on about things and it makes me feel better. Helping me keep a grip on my sanity and calmness that everyone seems to know me as. Some days it's a lot easier than others, where I'm struggling to keep the mask I hide behind on, even when everything seems to irritate me. But somehow I manage not to get too angry.

     But that's probably not an entirely good thing either, is it? Bottling up all the bad feelings inside me and not letting them go. I imagine that someday I'm either going to snap and do something I really regret (the thought of which scares me really badly sometimes) or snap and just finally go crazy. Or something like that. I don't really know.

     Anyways, I don't really feel like struggling with trying to write down my feelings, so let me think of something else to write about...um...

     Soooo......I started playing Minecraft again. Back to chopping down the forest and flattening hills. I could probably go a lot faster on Creative mode, but for some reason I'm very opposed to the idea. It feels like I'm cheating somehow, so instead I just go on Survival and set it to Peaceful mode (which doesn't really make much sense to me...but oh well)

     I've been using stone pickaxes and shovels for...a long time now. My older brother complained about it earlier, so I finally got some iron and made some iron stuff, but I figure that if I have that much cobblestone, shouldn't I use at least some of it? Besides, it's not like it makes much of a difference right now to me. The shovels seem to last the same amount of time (I'm pretty sure it doesn't, but I don't really track time all that much so I don't really care)

     I'm actually really glad I have it set to peaceful, because when I first entered one of the gaping holes to find some iron, the very first thing I found was a dungeon. I don't actually mind the mobs appearing and all that, since it's actually fun/easy killing them so long as you have a sword (not skeletons though. They're annoying) but I really don't feel like dealing with them most of the time. Especially not when my brother gets me to play with him and then we're out fighting mob after mob anyways. No, this particular world I'm trying something different from mob fighting and trying to find diamonds right away (though I'll get there eventually I suppose) It's really boring terraforming like how I am, but in it's own way it's satisfying somehow.

     Anyways, I've got some drafts for posts about more serious stuff that I should probably finish. I already know that most of them I'll end up scrapping anyways (which is also a reason why I don't post as much...) I've also got some other stuff to do. Mostly concerning playing some more Minecraft and doing chores. Blegh. But oh well.