My sister

Ah, had my computer taken away temporarily yesterday. My older sister (really, it is sometimes very hard to believe that she's the older one) was throwing a tantrum and having a bad attitude, saying that our mom never punishes me or our brother whenever we don't do our chores. She does actually, but my sister seems to be blind (and not just because her eyesight is really bad because she refuses to wear her glasses...which don't even work for her anymore because her eyesight has deteriorated further) to that fact.

And now that our dad's home, he and my mom had a talk with her. For once it was a talk and not a yell session, so I don't really know what they said. But she's in a lot of trouble.

I'm actually really worried about my sister. Angry, yes, but worried too.

See, the last time we went to the doctors to get a checkup, we were both told that we were really underweight. We needed to eat more (that's a high metabolism for you) or we'd end up in the hospital. This was quite some time ago, but since then I'm pretty sure I've picked up at least a little weight (but I have no idea really, since I have no idea how I much I weigh now or did then)

But my sister? She looks like she's losing weight. I know that I don't eat every meal (mostly breakfast because for the past few days when I was up early enough to eat something, there were ants in the microwave...don't ask me how...) but I do eat. Usually if I end up not eating anything for a day except for whatever candy/cookies I've got stored in my room, which did happen the other day actually, I eat a lot the next day. Probably not healthy, but sometimes that's how it works for me.

I have no problem with eating, or how I see myself. My sister said the other day that she was "bored of eating" (her words exactly) and she said that she was fat. Me and my mom were both there when she said that. My sister is anything but fat. She's probably got more bones showing than I had a few years ago. She has to wear a belt on the tightest setting, and then her pants are almost still too big for her. I doubt that she could even pull much of her stomach (you know, because the muscles are attached to you and don't move much, whereas fat does?) And she's calling herself fat? That, combined with the fact that she finds eating boring, means that she's probably anorexic.

It's not something I'd like to say. As much as my sister irritates me and we don't really get along, she's still my sister. I don't like hurting people. But there is something wrong with her. And if my mom says that she's probably anorexic, I believe her. She was a nurse before she had any of us kids, so I trust her judgment on that.

But as worried as I am for her physical health, I've kind of guessed that there wasn't something right with her eating (and sleeping) habits for a long time now. It's only now that something's being done about it, because it's getting really out of hand.

She also has anger management issues. Most of the time if I'll say that in an actual conversation, I'll be joking about it, but when it comes to my sister I honestly mean it. She's almost never in a good mood (hasn't been for...I don't even know how long now. I'm guessing about a year or so?) and if you ask her to do anything that requires her to get up from whatever she's doing, she'll throw a fit.

Some may argue and say that teenagers will do that. But me and my siblings weren't raised like most teenagers that I'm aware of (and if you know anything from my previous posts, my awareness of other people is not very great, so this may be wrong) First off, there are six of us (though there was a time when it was only four, but still) Second, we're bilingual, knowing Afrikaans as well compared to the usual Spanish that I'm aware of (though our next door neighbors know Polish, so that's different as well) We moved around a lot when we were younger (but sadly decided to stay in the most boring house so far for nearly a decade) None of us really had and kept friends for very long (though my sister did go to a friend's house the other day, it's more or less the first time they've spoken in months, so I don't really count her, but otherwise she'd be the longest friend any of us has managed to keep) We never really go out to do anything (this many kids, some spoiled more than anyone would admit, means that there's not as much money as there would be with fewer kids, and since everything seems to cost enough money to make a trip anywhere not worth it with 8 people in the family, we don't really do anything. Though this is mainly a problem for the past few years, not our entire life) And because we've got a stay at home mom watching us pretty well despite sitting with her laptop or doing chores most of the day, none of us do drugs or anything bad like that (or not that I'm aware of...also, I'm not saying that a lot of kids do drugs. Because I don't know if that's true or not. If it is, then that's a pretty scary thought. If not, then that's an irrelevant comment that you can probably ignore)

Anyways, back to my point. My sister has always had anger issues. But never this bad. She's been cooperative before, at the very least. She did things willingly without needing to be bribed into doing it (she only does chores nowadays because she gets to go on her computer and cellphone and gets paid for it) But at some point that I'm not sure I really noticed, she changed. She went from being the sister I actually got along with and played with to the sister that I'm sometimes ashamed to be related to.

And still, her anger issues are different too. She might've been in a bad mood for a while, but now she throws things around (how she hadn't broken anything yet is a mystery to me) and if she's asked to do something like help our little siblings get dressed or something, sometimes they end up crying (though I'm guilty of that last one too...I don't mean to hurt them, but sometimes I do) She does a half-ass job (and believe me, I have been raised very anti-swearing. It's why other words don't manage to find their way into this blog) on everything we ask her to do, and half the time it's easier to just do it ourselves. Which makes more work for the rest of us, and it makes the rest of us unhappy, but still. Either way, someone is going to end up mad.

I'd really love to blame all my sister's problems on the fact that she clearly doesn't eat enough or get enough sleep, because they do factor in with a person's mood, but I can't. There aren't many things that I'm absolutely sure of when it comes to other people, but here I am certain that even if my sister ate regular healthy meals and got 10 hours of sleep a day, she'd still be nasty.

Hn, just listened to my older brother going on a bit again (Minecraft this time. Haha, him and Minecraft is always something I'm willing to listen to :) ) and because he tends to ramble (more productively than I do) for at least about 20 minutes or so every time he walks in, I've forgotten where I was going with this entire post.

Oh wait. I think I remember. I'm worried about her. I'm sure that she's got problems she has to sort out, and it'd be easier for her to talk with someone, but she doesn't have anyone to talk to. Sure, she's got the rest of the family, but just as much as I can't talk with them about any of my problems, I'm sure that she can't either. I'm not exactly sure what is so important to her, but I think that she's probably just turning into one of the more typical teenaged girls I'm used to seeing. Well, typical except for the fact that she's a tomboy and hates dresses and makeup and all things girly (and the funny thing is that she says this while she's got a pretty jewelled heart necklace on that I don't think she's taken off for anything for months now, whereas I'm more girly than her and I rarely wear jewelry)

It's probably not a very good thing that most of the people she can talk to are on Facebook. Especially considering how she says that she didn't even want to friend some of those people. And that one of her friends, her age, is going to have (or has had, I'm not sure) a second child. She already had her first one a while back, but she was pregnant last time I checked. And another of her friends is also pregnant...Yeah, I'm not convinced that they're the right type of people for my sister to be talking to.

But then, it's also her choice. I'm not going to force her to do anything (though the rest of my family is a different story) I personally don't like it when people make decisions for me, so I try not to do the same for other people. And though I hope that she'll get better, I have a sinking feeling that that possibility is as likely as my mom and dad deciding that they love each other and stop fighting about so many things (which is to say, not at all)